The Life & Times of Brown Sugar II

I know you have pretty much given up on Brown Sugar updates! Don’t write me off yet! While I have good intentions, I can’t seem to make time to sit mine arse down and blog the way I used to. *sigh* Lord knows I have a million and one things that I could be sharing with you all. Wow….*tapping chin* I first blogged in October 2004. I became addicted immediately. Here it is, January 2007 and my blogging record has pretty much become nonexistent. Grant it, I’ve blogged a time or two on my Myspace page. But no where near how I used to be. Maybe I’ll make that one of my resolutions for this new year. LOL Here it is January 7 and I’m still talking about making resolutions.

Is it just me, or has anybody else NOT really thought about making resolutions for the year? There are a lot of things that I definitely want to work on that I didn’t accomplish in previous years. But to sit down and make a list of resolutions….I just couldn’t do this year. Well, I wouldn’t say ‘couldn’t - more like, just haven’t done it. Maybe because I know deep down that after the first 30 days or so of the year, I will have resorted back to my old ways of doing things. We’ll see. Maybe things will be different this year. *rubbing chin* So when is it too late to make new year’s resolutions. *smile* I think I just need to work on making a few lifestyle changes.

Anywho, nothing much has changed since the last time I blogged. I’m still not feeling the whole teaching thing. Most of my students get on my damn nerves. Seriously. I can’t wait until the last day of school. I did a lot of thinking over my short ass Winter Break. I decided that I am not going to continue a teaching career. Now I just have to figure out what in THE hell I’m going to do next. While most of my friends who are teachers tell me to give it another try, I can’t see it. Everybody keeps telling me that every school is not like the school I’m at.

Part of me is thinking that I might need to get back into law enforcement. Only….as a civilian. I’m not trying to go back thru anybody’s police academy again. No way Jose! I don’t know. The only reason why I say law enforcement is because that’s what I did for the past 9 years. Maybe I should just stick with what I know, huh? But…I wasn’t exactly happy doing that either. That was really my first “real” job and I just rolled with it. The next thing I knew, I had been there for almost 9 years. Unhappy to say the least. So…I guess I should just leave well enough alone. Shoot. From my first day of the academy, I KNEW I didn’t want to be a police officer. But….I didn’t have anything else to fall back on at the time. So…I just stuck with it. Although, I can say that I don’t regret it. I definitely gained a lot of experience. I was a police officer, detective and lastly one of the department’s spokespersons. Good experience all around, I’d say. I just want to find a job that I love and will allow me to utilize my skills. Ya feel me? A few weeks ago, I was talking to a girlfriend who talked about how much she loves her job. That’s what I want. I want to LOVE my job. I want to go to bed at night, wake up in the morning, get ready for work, drive to work (all of the above) and be excited about going to work. Instead, I do all of the above DREADING going to work. *sigh* Not to mention that I’m bringing my damn work home with me everyday! I just want a job that will allow me to leave my work at work. Of course, unless I absolutely have to. *sigh* Things have to get better! Things WILL get better! I know this!

But check it out, I have even more on my mind today. Unfortunately, I can’t get into it all. I need to look over my lesson plans for the week. Then I need to get my son ready for bed. So with all that being said, I’ll holla!