Sorry for delay…
Ok so yeah, I’ve been busy as all get out. One with work. Two, motherhood. Three, with job search. I’ve really put this job searching thing in high gear. I think it ultimately came down to me knowing when enough was enough. Know what I mean? I had been thinking about making moves for what seems like FOR.DAMN.EVER.
After reading one of Kajuana’s post a few days ago….(I think it was last week) I was inspired to just do the damn thing. Stop talking about it and be about it dammit. Then once I talked to her and told her how much I admired her ability to get up and go and do the damn thing I said to myself - cuz you already know i revealed that i talk to myself from time to time - “Brown Sugar….it is high time that you make a career change. Step out there on faith.” KK…thanks for listening to me rant, rave and vent for the millioneth time about wanting to make a career change. *cyber hugs* Again, I really admire you darling! I believe it definitely boils down to me being scared to just step out on faith. I think I’m scared of not succeeding. Know what I mean? Funny thing is, I knew from the very beginning that this job was not something I could see myself doing for years. I knew from the beginning that I didn’t want to do this and that it truly, truly wasn’t in my heart. But….here I am today, 8 years later. Still doing the same damn thing. Although, I’ve progressed in my career here I’m still not happy.
I was taking this career evaluation questionaire. I came across this question.
“How long has it been since you examined your career path and measured its impact on your personal happiness?”
My answer didn’t focus on exactly how LONG it’s been but how OFTEN it’s been. It seems like every damn month I’m talking about how I really want to make a career change.
You’re probably wondering, “Brown Sugar, what is it that you really want to do?” Well let me tell you fine sirs and madams. Brown Sugar REALLY wants to break into television and/or radio production. I haven’t really tapped into either since I was in college. I moved to ATL with hopes of breaking into the industry. Things just didn’t work out that way and well, here I am doing what I’m doing today. *sigh*
***sidenote***See! I’m watching C.NN. WHY is there a plane about to make an emergency landing due to landing gear problem?!? And you wonder why the heck I’m scared to fly these days. Oh LAWD! I would have probably had a damn heart attack! I kid you not. Ok…Ok….so they made a safe landing. *grabbing heart*
***end sidenote***
What the heck was I saying? Oh yeah. Um…shoot forget it. My train of thought was totally thrown off after that sidenote. LOL Just know that I’m serious about making a career change.
I still need to get into my wedding weekend update. Just know that it wasn’t a good thing. Nothing good about it. I’ll attempt to do it prior to week’s end. Hey, if all else fails, we’ll be having an ATL bloggers drunkfest this Friday and I’m sure there will be all kinds of blogworthy material to give. LOL
~smooches~
I totally understand how you feel. I get ANGRY at myself sometimes when I think of the detours I have taken to doing what I truly love. Complacency has always been my issue. I think you will thrive in whatever you do, because you are just that damn good. you have the drive, intellect, and resources to make it happen. I don’t think they ready for you! Let’s go girl, it’s time for the next level, now!
and ummm I was watching CNN too..I don’t know what they were hoping to catch on live TV but I am glad there was no bloodshed..*shudder*
Comment by Wise Diva — September 22, 2005 @ 12:50 am
I know EXACTLY how you feel. I love my chosen field, but not neccessarily the fact that I work for other people. I have plans in the making to remedy that, but I’m also afraid…I LIKE my job security, benefits and retirement plan. Still, I know that I’m going to eventually have to step out on faith or burn myself out.
And rest up for Friday. I’m bringing the holy water…
Comment by Beloved — September 22, 2005 @ 10:05 am
@ Wise Diva ~ Girl…that’s exactly what it is. Complacency. Definitely ONE part of my issue too. *sigh* I’ll keep you posted - like G.Cornelius. hahahaha
@ Beloved ~Holy water?!? Girl you a mess! You just make sure to sprinkle some on yourself before stepping out the house! smh I just emailed you, by the way. We need to make some decisions dammit!
Comment by Brown Sugar — September 22, 2005 @ 10:18 am
Sending positive vibes toward Brown Sugar..Make it happen chica or at least try so you can say you gave it your all.
ATL bloggers fest this w/e huh? So I want some HOB details for sure!
Comment by Edwige — September 22, 2005 @ 10:52 am
@ Edwige ~ LMAO! What makes you think that I’ll have some good ole’ HOB details following our ATL blogger drunkfest?!? Um..I mean, grant it, a few that will be present are horny lil devils but eh…I don’t think we’ll be getting down like that. Nothing HOB worthy anyway. LOL Then again…you never know. *rubbing chin*
Comment by Brown Sugar — September 22, 2005 @ 11:42 am
i always love a good sidenote. HA! no seriously, good for you for getting out there to find greater satisfaction/hapiness etc. I’m sure with your positive attitude about it the search will be much easier. Keep us posted (no pun intended)
Comment by o — September 22, 2005 @ 5:43 pm
If I could figure out how to make a “comfortable” living at what my passion is in life i’d be all set (instead of rolling up into a place i hate every day that pays well)
Glad you’ve realized what you need to do..
Comment by Reddy — September 23, 2005 @ 10:33 pm
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Comment by hoisting — December 25, 2005 @ 4:25 pm